#where mizuki was debating on whether or not to go to school because of the possibility that she might see her friends there

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ena5 ending scene....... oughhhhh the way that you can see ena gently cupping mizuki's limp hand between two of hers, the way that (if you zoom in) you can see that after ena tells her that n25's waiting for her her grip changes to hold onto Ena's hand back....

(it's hard to see but you can tell Mizuki's hand changed enough for it to be noticeable that she's now holding Ena's hand, a smaller but still very important way that she's showing vulnerability, past just her crying)

the way that when mizuki finally admits to everything (before the transition to the ena card) and ena speaks again, her tone already sounds so much lighter and a little softer, idk how to describe it but it really sounds like she's trying to lead her to walk forward and reassure her that it'll be alright, relieved, maybe

it also fucks me up how ena actually still let mizuki have autonomy in this situation. after she says her piece about her own feelings she tells mizuki that, if she really wants to, if it really upsets her, then she can run, it's up to her, she won't force her to do anything she doesn't want to do, say anything she doesn't want to say, or confront anything she doesn't want to confront. and when mizuki asks if it's really okay for them to be friends ena doesn't answer for her, she tells mizuki that she'll have to decide that for herself. again, it's up to her, she won't just put the words in her mouth for her. like i think that's so important. idk why but i feel like that's such an important little detail, just the fact that ena wants to convey so strongly that she cares but she doesn't want to force anything on mizuki that she doesn't want, not trying to push her too strongly, trying not to make her feel completely cornered, despite the situation, hngh

also the line after ena says that, when she says that she's had enough of mizuki running away. aughhhhhh idk something something the time to make a decision is now, no more wavering, no more indecisiveness, but also something something confronting one of mizuki's core means of coping (running away). while most of their confrontation was about the root cause of why mizuki's running, that doesn't confront the issues that are caused by mizuki thinking that running away will make things alright, or at least "good enough". when mizuki runs away it's for herself ([insert rant from like a year ago about how mizuki is selfish-but-put-in-less-antagonizing-terms]), she thinks it'll make things okay enough because it makes her feel Okay Enough and while she knows that it will make others worried (she did know that her friends were probably worried from her being gone), she doesn't get a straightforward confrontation about how worried/frustrated someone might be by getting left in the dark by her until Ena says it in that line. That's why I think that specific line is what caused Mizuki to fully break down, yeah, obviously telling Mizuki that they need to decide whether it's okay for them to be friends is what the whole confrontation was leading up to, but I think that acknowledgement of Mizuki's longest running and arguably worst coping mechanism (running, cutting things off) and how it affects more than just her is what finally did it for her. okay that started off as just a "holy shit ena and hurt/comfort" rant and turned into something else but point is damn that shit was Crazy /pos